Pinch me, I must be dreaming

The 22th of November, 2009
Abu Dhabi, UAE

Take this kiss upon the brow! And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow...

- Edgar Allan Poe

I don’t pretend to see the future, or dare to know our past
criteria, in loving warmth, memories that last
Do you hear the sweet sweet music? the melodies at play
A violin cries sweet lullabies, and the heartache is here to stay

Do you dare speak in tongues unspoken, dialects long lost
in vanity once common, now the longing lives in thoughts
How does every whisper break the silence? the monochrome of grey
A lust born in forbidden love, we danced out in the rain

Let thoughts release so very slowly, in thoughts provoking only you
Let smoke defy the light so boldly, incarnations blast perfect hues

So let the sun shine in and highlight her hair
let summer’s red roses know you’re always there
let destiny’s burning fire kindle bright
and our eyes burn free into the night

I dont pretend to see the future, or dare to know our pasts,
while dreaming of infinity, I found one feeling that lasts.

Jumairah Beach

The 16th of July, 2009
Abu Dhabi, UAE

It was a gentle blow, a cooling breeze
it’s effects lingered on for weeks
the temperature dipping just below the high
her crimson blood dripping over the sides
of the leather seats, and the serenade
that the perfect knob dared to play
reminding you, reminding me,
of all thoughts lost and love received

so beg farewell to those final days
that left us wanting in a way
all that was so very bad, so very impatient
so tell me all the lies untold
tell me that I’m not too old
lead me down to that special dawn
where perfection’s found in imperfect songs

lead me down to the caves, the sea
the salt, it invigorates me
the scent on the rocks, they lay to rest
the doubts infested in my chest...

And her calming embrace killed the pain.
Of my blood dripping down my arms.

Last September

The 20th of June 2009
Abu Dhabi, UAE

Akogare ni oshitsubusarete akirametetanda
Hateshinai sora no iro mo shiranaide.

- Nakagawa Shouko

Oh oh! Oh oh no!
It killed it’s splendor!
It took it’s last sip of life last September!

Every lonely thought I ever possessed came together only of loneliness
Every single time my heart broke, I broke it alone
Every single tear I ever shed, I swear I shed it for her
Every single corpse I’ve ever been, Led me alone to this place

Oh oh! Oh oh no!
It killed it’s splendor!
It took it’s last sip of life last September!

I see the days change into night, but the fog remains the same
embedded on my mind, like cursed angels who sing

Breathe in, oh God, I just need a moment
Breathe in, I think I’ve lost my splendor
Breathe deep, I know it’s not the end,

Breathe in... Stop!

A Static Lullaby

The 15th of June 2007
Abu Dhabi, UAE

The pretenders know too. For we paint together.
The same colours in different hues

- S. J.

It was the last glint of madness in her insane eyes
The world revolved around her sadness,
And true to form, her sadness died
It was a lust before her prayers ascended,
Before the rage subdued,
Before the scars that break our hearts manage to find the truth

And in the marrow unending, her love is a blessing
A blessing in the most unheard of ways
And in the shadows, in the shadows I retrace
A past without a purpose, a love without a face

So save us! A mind controlled
Save us! Embraced, a hold
Save us! As once I had been

I’m there for you cause you’re there for me.

As Mystical As Purring Animals

The 27th of January 2009
Abu Dhabi, UAE

Don't worry. I don't have low self-esteem. It's a mistake.
I have low esteem for everyone else.

- Daria

Don’t you understand I stand here broken
Please don’t underestimate my love
I asked a thousand stars for forgiveness
And all cared to blessed me but one

Care to read the cuts so sadly opened?
Care to touch the tears as they run?
I dared to bind the sun to perfection
And every last rope came undone

So glory tends to be such a full word
Spoken by the foolish in their prime
Come the winter those same backs are broken
Every single curse has it’s time

And left in the magic are the holy
They dared to speak the truth once
And justice, so dark, careless, useless
Crippled our virgin thoughts

Innate are the powers that we hide so well
And others we adore
Come the dusk, in hate, descending
And love’s nothing but a war

A Tapestry

The 8th of September 2008
Abu Dhabi, UAE

Demeanors that set slaves, in rushing judgement, love lost or stayed
Inertia crept into the shadows that bade the holy protection
And false hopes marred by reality beg for quick solutions

So live now, in regress, a sweet sense, tongue and taste
A murder screens, though for a moment it seemed
that fists and fury were one and the same

Dirges that sweep up the night, a curse of multiple tombs
They followed to death, their kings
And mystified young hate, in dimness, in love
In a treachery... A dance!
Sublime and whole
The forbidden... In reach,

The fallen now take their chance

S & M

The 25th of May 2008
Abu Dhabi, UAE

Salvation lost in a rage unknown
And thoughts like these chill my bones
Like a fire in waiting, a lost caress
After all have spoken, she knew best

My last sound audible in a treasured creek
Angry Chairs dusting but seldom speak
Apart from gains they left their gold
No one dared tell them they were too old

Do fine lines beckon in fairy-tales?
Marry swore virginity and the cake was stale
Around the house she shed her tears
Ranting and raving, so close, so near

Remember the sonnet? it led to dance!
Irregular beats, and her photograph?
Around the hall, in paint, in gold
Many tried to love her heart of coal

Helena D. Skyle

The 10th of May 2008
Abu Dhabi, UAE

Can we pretend to leave and then we'll meet again
When both our cars collide?

- My Chemical Romance

And she reveled, in hate, at thoughts of lies
And she hinted to the sky, a solemn goodbye
And she taunted the gallows, like a damned star
And in hell they broke open, and went so far

And she lied to my face, though the snow was plenty
And she drank of my blood, though my veins were empty
And she kissed off my final heart-felt farewell
In the dying hours enchantments are hell

And she dared find her voice, though she carried a song
Tell me what is right, since everything is wrong
And she closed her lips tight around my tongue
Though the moonlight laughed, I felt nothing but strong

And the vile, they speak, and the violent sing
In violin curses, on viola strings
they met on nightly dues in amazing things
And heresy's ripe in so many ways!

And she pegged at the silence, though I offered a song
And she sang her own hell and let me sing along
And she cursed the day she was born
Though so many daughters owed such little scorn

And she bit of her own lip and drew of her blood
A crimson pearl bead and final thought
Un-perched from paradise, and free from sin
She spread her blood stained wings and...

I hope that one day she’ll return again

And I Bled

The 2nd of March 2008
Abu Dhabi, UAE

But you really need to listen to me
'Cause i'm telling the truth
I mean this; I'm okay! (trust me)

- My Chemical Romance

It was a shot to the head, the ruby bled red
Just a shot to the head
It was a vile, poor thing, a trance and she’s sing
Of love’s softer things

It was a shot to the head, just like I said
The roses bled black for days
And in days they were dead

It was magic in notes sang off her tongue
And believing in her love, and love was done

It was a shot... just a shot
A shot to the head, for her I bled

Into The Looking Glass

The 13th of December 2007
Abu Dhabi, UAE

It's to dying in another's arms, and why I had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world, and those nights in my car

- Something Corporate

Delectable, trifle, and bathed in eyes that bleed now
In haste, in fuller defiance, the trustless spawn in you
The heresy we endure to sprite a victory
Marked in hate’s objectivity

So lead on in regress, and gather the pieces
A fuller time, detached! And in ruin
But they fall all the same

And the spot on my heart, lived up to values set dark
In the wishful hate that lead up to this very moment

And from the sky, she’d ask a question
A summons to a lover’s heart decayed
I’d beg for goodness, a perfect answer
In whispers, in hushes once left unsaid!

They open, in reason, the frightful, the feelings
Of guilt born of every single bite she took
And spiteful, the sparing, the answer once glaring
Now betray the gaze... reflected in that look.